"All hope abandon, Ye who enter here"

eterntychanges @ 2009-12-08T21:52:00

2009-12-09T02:52:46Z

sitting here chilling with friend like people. it is good to get out of the house (i say this like dave and i weren't out all day yesterday)
the birthday was very nice. went to jungle jims, got a new job, went to thai 9, came home and got a massage. it was a great day, all in all, spent with my most fave of guys. :)
tomorrow is the first day of the new job. it pays nearly twice as much as the last one, hopefully won't treat employees as though they have an iq of 12 and i get insurance in 30 days. it's an accounting post with AR. at the very least, it pays more and should be a little more interesting.
here's to hoping.
it is out by cinci, but the drive itself is no longer than that to other jobs that i have had.

day by day

2009-11-17T03:27:32Z

hmmm... sitting here listening to cash's cover of "hurt" with one of the best guys in the world after finishing my school work for the week. other than the occasional cat crashes, it's been a pretty good day. (knock knock knock)
it's surprising to be able to laugh about the same things and just sit and chill without any expectations on the outcome of a moment. it is just so very very relaxing.
had dinner made for me, cleared up a mishap with the beans, and ate while talking, writing a couple of papers, listening to dave's mix.
why can't all days be as relaxing?

eterntychanges @ 2009-11-07T19:37:00

2009-11-08T00:37:51Z

some things i wish i hadn't done.. he's one of them.

eterntychanges @ 2009-08-24T00:04:00

2009-08-24T04:10:19Z

in many ways, life is very interesting right now, but at the same time, it is very much same old same old. sundays are gaming, work is tuesday thru saturday, and i get to spend time with the alpha on the weekend.
everything falls very much into place right now. having no female friends is nice, because at the times i do have them, they need a lot of upkeep... i feel wrong saying that about a friendship, but it is still very true. i don't have a whole lot of emotions to put into relationships, it seems, and so guys seem to be easier to relate with. ... even if the sometimes treat me like a girl. :)

so, since i am borrowing this computer, this is all very brief.

eterntychanges @ 2009-07-07T10:52:00

2009-07-07T14:58:38Z

some things have changed significantly.
some have not.

there is a new addition to the house.
there are new stressors making life seem impossible.

laughtor still comes on the weekends.
laughtor seems only to be on the weekends.

nightmares come with each sleep.
perceptions of the things around seem to tremble.

made a few new recipies... egg battered potatos were really good!
pho is still sick, see line four.

that's all i feel like talk of on here.

eterntychanges @ 2009-04-16T19:22:00

2009-04-16T23:37:00Z

just watched the movie "the piano". for some reason, this brought to mind how much of a bitch i am. this mostly has to do with life in the last 8 months or so.
in order to be happy, quite a few lives have been upset. granted, never before have i been so happy as i am now, even with the lack of a job.

one of the ways to know that things are getting bad with me is to have the feeling of wanting a kitten. today, that feeling hit. granted, it was only a fleeting thought, quickly struck down by the entrance of "commonsense", but the thought still happened.

last night the strangest series of dreams hit me. should maybe preface this with the fact that i had a huge ass migraine again, which can tend to give me "fever" dreams. but, yeah, these dreams not only were really freaking wierd, they were almost all the kind where you can wake up during them, but not all the way, and therefore feel a huge weight sitting on your chest anytime you try and move in the waking world, but can't seem to stay fully in the world of dream, either. it was freaky, not fun and not something that i want a repeat of in the near future. on the other hand, the hyper bright, dream trip on acid was kinda neat. fever dreams are fun. and leo, thanks for the text at 12:30 this morning, because that finally broke the whole awake/asleep thing that was not so fun about the whole thing. hearing a ringtone doesn't mesh so well with dreamland, leastways, not the one that i was in.

finally got the yard mowed. had to trick the weather by not planning to do it. every single time i had planned to mow the yard, it either rained or froze. .. usually it rained. this time, no planning, woke up to a perfect day and played outside until my stupid body reminded me that it hadn't been fed, then took a break and played some more. next on the yard agenda: weeding! :) after that, it'll be time to plant. there's enough sun to get a variety of stuff in there. some will just be seeds, but the main thing is to get the back yard cleaned up. there's glass and a whole bunch of other crap out there that shouldn't be.

so, that's about it for the time being. if any body reads this tonight, I AM BORED!! play with me!! please!!

:)

eterntychanges @ 2009-04-09T14:07:00

2009-04-09T18:27:17Z

so much seems to be going on at the same time that nothing at all is going on. my weekends are a time of blessings and stress combined, yet i wouldn't trade them for the world. last week was spent farting around at anthony's house, rp-ing, chatting, hanging out, just doing friend things. met anthony's girfl, shell. she rocks way out. wish she lived closer than oregon. :( the day shell had to leave, we all just hung around watching movies, playing wii, talking, grabing waffle house, ect. until leo, val, anthony and i took shell to the airport. the week was over too soon. anthony's an ass, but he's still awesome. of my friends are an ass at some time or another. since i'm a bitch, figure that it's all fair. :)
even though i loved every second of it, by sunday the constant people were dragging on be a bit. it was great to just get out with dave and wander around athens for a bit. up hill, down hill, it was beautiful. the scenery was great, the people were vacuous, the company was wonderful. on the drive back, there were thunderstorms and tornados, though, which were interesting. we were so glad to get back home.
di called me this weekend. we're getting together today. i miss her like mad; her and sarah both. what's funny is that we all have times when we really don't want to talk to people, and since the three of us understand that, we're the ones who take the brunt from each other. ie: is di calls and i don't want to talk to people that day, i won't answer the phone, the same with sarah or i if we call her. since we know what's going on, it's not rude, and we'll all apologize to each other the next time we talk. it's odd, but it works.
but, anywho, di and i are meeting for indian food today to catch up. she's been having problems sleeping so i'm giving her my stuffed demon to help her. Moof is big, furry, brown, has a sunburst on his belly, and is designed to keep away nightmares. most of you know that i have a smaller version of Moof named Oofelia. i have been trying to coolect these demons for a few years, now, but they're very difficult to find. since di needs Moof more than i need to collect them, Moof goes to a good home.
well, this wasn't what i wanted to write about, but that's how it seems to go.

eterntychanges @ 2009-03-27T14:11:00

2009-03-27T18:37:30Z

so, it was a rather bad night last night. .. it was one of the types of night where being restless doesn't reallt begin to describe it, but there's not enough focus of will to put any action forward to relieve the feeling. it had been like that most of the day, really, even when just lounging and playing fable. it's been a few days since i've had a really good night's rest. the weekends are when i get some sleep. it's the company of another warm body with me, arms wrapped tight, that helps. that there is complete trust is a wonderful bonus, too. ... but, yeah. photon, knowing that i am restless, acts like a furry leech and suctions to my leg all night. that isn't so bad except that being restless means that the clausterphobia that always lurks is magnified 10x, so his little fluffy body becomes an anchor holding and dragging me down.

this morning sometime around dawn started thinking about rob again. ... this is never a pleasant line of thought and rarely leads to anything that can be deemed productive. one of my greatest fears is that i will be put into a madhouse. (yes, there is a connection... wait for it...) a while ago my mother asked me to think long and hard about whether or not being put into a hospital would have been beneficial to my health at that point. ... i still don't have an answer to that question. the complete and total terror that comes when thinking of being put into a mental ward overcomes any realistic thought of the benefit. yes, it would balance the chemical levels in my body. yes, it would (in theory) be a place of less stress where i would be able to go to sort things out without distractions. but independence is such a large part of who i am that it is asking for trouble. being in a situation where i lose free will makes my anger come to the forefront. .. i have anger issues. .. lots of them. going manic doesn't make me happy, it makes me angry; very, very angry. when i feel trapped, it is no longer a matter of whether or not i get hurt, but whether or not i get out. seeing how my mania works, that's why i like the old descriptive of "manicdepression" much better. the moods aren't two sides of a coin, but mania take depression to a deeper, colder level, past the point of caring about self worth. the depression becomes selfdestructive. but, back to the fear of be in a mental ward, would it have been enough to have kept me alive? looking back, yes, i was maybe 6 or 7 mental inches from my next attempt at suicide. this time i could correct my last mistakes. there would be no life saving phone call, no pounding on the door, to save me. this would be final. and so i wonder..
rob's death was the loss of a wonderful man. i want to leave it at that and to move on and to cherish the memories of him. i wish that he hadn't died so soon. wish that he had been happier. wish many things. but none of that helps. all i can do is say that he's happy where he is now. at peace. we on earth are the ones left in the wash of emotions.

meditate and move on.

eterntychanges @ 2009-03-23T13:09:00

2009-03-23T17:16:14Z

i have just recently made a huge decision that will effect the rest of my life... now it's time to stop stalling and act on it. ...

the goings and doings of my life have consisted mainly with hanging out with leo, adam, dave and brian; not to mention an 8 hour period (or about there) of worldwide d and d day. it was a blast. the dm was awesome, offered to do naughty things to me with his girlfriend ;) and invited adam and i to larp with him in april. .. so a social life is coming around. it's nice to have one of those again. game was fun on sunday, but wasn't much in the mood. the endometriodes were acting up again, so all i wanted to do was be a pile of highly medicated goo away from people. anthony is back in town (yay!) but hans is leaving (sniff!). we will all miss the panda!! i have a fan club with a member of 1. Kelsey rocks!!

and, that's all i have time for.

eterntychanges @ 2009-03-15T21:32:00

2009-03-16T01:39:58Z

sometimes lj backfires. especially when significant others are both on a list together.

but, in other news, had a meeting with my father about the job shite. it didn't go so bad.
the friday game has been missing ever since the week after i after i started.

i really wanted to write what was on my mind, but have neither the time nor the inclination at the moment.

it is star wars night tonight. people seems to be thinking the the droid is personal vibrator... teehee! :)

asta!

why

2009-01-15T17:58:15Z

why do i always feel like i have to apologize? looking into these events from an outside perspective, things are exceedingly fucked up. being inside of them is like constantly being pulled from a dozen different directions. there's what i want to do, what others say i should do... the heart, the head, both saying to do different things. in the end, i know what i'll do. so, to counter balance , every other sentence is an apology.

but, off topic, i am moving on 1/24. if you can help, please come. will begin moving at 10am, but since i'll have a u-haul, i could use all the help i can get. give me a call or just show up. there will be food after the stuff is unloaded from the truck at my new place.

my angel, my all, my other self

2009-01-06T05:58:06Z

imp
my thanks to adam... last night was much needed. my thanks to angel. my thanks to a group of guys who came to the conclusion that i am "gamer chick" and "really, awsome" (per leo). don't know why, but there's just something very relaxing about hanging about with a bunch of guys. females are so much more demanding. when with the group, it's so easy to just sit back, watch what goes on, chill, hang out, wear jeans and a t-shirt and no makeup and lounge around. women make things more difficult, usually expecting things to be neat, arranged, organized, and, even if you're just coming to "hang out", a person shouldn't wear what is acceptable for lounging in the house.
am i a geek? damn skippy!
flowered ambrosia
for christmas this year (yes, am well aware this was a while ago, but there's been little inclination for making a post on here) i made up gift bags with homemade butterscotch cookies and lots of candy for the guys in group. leo and adam on sugar highs are a little scary!! :) so many of the gifts for people got pushed back due to both schedules and being ill. for the month of december, i was sick for almost all of it. thus, christmas eve was spent as crunch time with the present making and wrapping. nothing too glamorous this year. no 8 bathces of cookies. (thank goodness!!)
completion
an evening of letting loose is in the future for saturday evening! have plans of going out with ashley and a few other people and go prowling. a dd is had, there are no spouses allowed, and we'll be women with a purpose: forget that there are bad things like call centers and potty training, and think only of the good things like laughing and friends! plans are being made, but ash and i are meeting up after work and i'm crashing at her place for the night, being the only one (i think) who liver further away than 5 or 10 minutes. since the bed's pretty big, i'll prob have to share it, but they can bring their own blankets, dammit!! :)

there are so many things to plan.
so many things still to do.
such a wonderful, wonderful thing happened last night. and, no, i wasn't disappointed, either.

dear god, i need sleep.
ml

eterntychanges @ 2008-12-09T01:07:00

2008-12-09T06:08:01Z

today i got a call from diane. she told me that scott killed himself. ... now, there have been a lot of things that have happened to change scott in the last year. but, he was still good to me. .. he was still human. no matter the bitterness, i never hated him.

eterntychanges @ 2008-11-27T20:53:00

2008-11-28T01:54:04Z

hings to be thankful for:

having a job
having a least one person that i can talk to
having three wonderful felines to drive me nuts
having a way to get to work
having a warm, safe home
not worrying about where our next meal will come from
having insurance
having faith in the things that i believe, not just paying them lip service

while there are many things that i would like to change about life, there are quite a few that make life worth living. to anybody who reads this, please keep in mind that these blogs tend to get written when i am frustrated or feeling down. rarely do i truly forget that there are things to be thankful for.

while having a day like thanksgiving to focus on the family and friends that we are thankful for, this isn't something that should be reserved only for the holiday season. thankfulness and human kindness should be giving all year long, in big ways and small. it has lately come to seem that this is what my major work at this time is. those who have met me know that i don't always have the greatest view of humanity and that, while kindness can be put forth, it is not always natural.

i describe myself as a bitch, and stick by this. it isn't that i think others are more important than myself, but that i can nothing for myself. this lack of self-respect reflects on the way i treat others. in the last months this had been a project i've been working on, to give more kindness, whether i know the person or not, no matter how i feel on that day.

without getting into details, i just wanted some sort of kindness to be left behind me when i was no longer in the world. even if unremembered, the mark would still be left in the minds of the people who felt that kindness, if even for a day.

well, i wanted this to be only a short post..
damn ..
got long winded...

a renewed friendship

2008-11-13T06:10:13Z

from the frozen wastes for athens, ohio, dave has re-entered my life. for the last two days, we have spent an average of two hours a day on the phone just catching up. ... yeah, we missed each other.

the new job is going all right. the first two days were rough, but things are picking up. have a friend, ashley, who i met the day i got hired. we have nothing in common except that we're female, we got hired the same day, and our names start with "a". she's nice, though. most of the other people in the class are great, too. the teacher can be bribed with mike and ike's and peanut m&m's. 8 hours sitting at a computer, doing nothing but looking at the same website had be about pulling my hair out. (that was how the first too days were spent, due to technical issues) so, today i came armed with a book to read, and two books of work searches. however, since monday, i've had very little sleep, and none at all last night. sucks, but that's okay.

nothing much left to say.

wish it were the weekend.

eterntychanges @ 2008-11-07T17:08:00

2008-11-07T22:20:38Z

yay yay yay yay yay yay!!! i has a job!

granted, it may not be a wonderful life changing job opportunity, but it's money in the bank. it starts monday. it's night shift, so link and i will be on a similar schedule. sundays and wednesdays are my days off. can still game, can still see my hubby, and will end up making as much as him when training is over.

things are cool.

i was worried that, for the second year in a row, i would be jobless for christmas and my birthday. but, nope. yay!

link and i went out to celebrate last night. not much, just carrabas. the food made us a bit sick, but it was tasty. spent some time outside on the last nice night of the year. the rain was welcome as i woke up, too. the earth was positively crying for it.

went to yellow springs to take advantage of the weather and almost literally ran into dave chappelle. i was looking at a beautiful husky and i swerved right into his path by accident. i didn't know it was him, at first. right in front of pangia/dark star. i feel bad, because he may have thought i did it on purpose, but i really was just more interested in the dog. :) it's not even like it's the first time i've seen his there! last time we chatted at the emporium, but still. quite embarrasing.

darcy's in town for a few days. ~~yay.~~ she's doing her normal prima donna bullshit. changed thanksgiving to this sunday instead of the normal day, and, so far, nobody has even asked me if i can go. they are just assuming that i can. i'm telling them that i can't. i have a previous engagement. i've tried for days to get a hold of somebody there, but can't get a returned call. oh well.

so, i'm off to get link out of bed.

so tired of politics

2008-11-04T01:58:20Z

oh my god, how i wish elections and all inherent bullshit were over! some of this negativity is from my own negative world view of the moment. still no job. job market sucks no money for school holidays are coming up.
have started gaming again. 4th ed. it's pretty fun. the dm is really good. he's a go with the flow type and not so rules bound. the character is a healer, but with the changes to the class, she doesn't just get beat on, and her healing radius is further. once she levels up a bit more, shell kick a bit of ass.
a friend from many moons ago showed up there. it was funny, because i had been thinking of him only the week before.
need to give di and sarah a call. sarah just had her baby shower sunday. she's about ready to pop. she's bored as hell, too.
went hiking in glen helen last week. the signs of the storm are still all over. couldn't walk far down the path without having to duck under of climb over a downed tree. the air smelled so good, though. it smelled of leaves, wind, cold water, and the metal from the springs. the creeks are pretty much dried up since we haven't gotten any rain. it's surprising how colorful the leaves are since it's been so dry.
link and i spent halloween at dave and busters. from what i heard, it was safer than being around town. oakwood seemed to have a good number of trick of treaters. link got a new hat and some candy, and i got a tiny little frog. i kicked ass and got over 5000 tickets while we were there. yay me!!
the baby is doing well. she's now smiling and laughing more. she was fussy this weekend though. link got to see her, but i didn't. she's still a little poo factory, but that's expected, seeing as who the parents are.
mother got a new job in springfield. it starts the first week of december. same job (ota), just in a new place. she'll be making $10 more an hour than before.
found out that a rather undesireable element is back in town. guess it's time to look over my shoulder again when visiting for the holidays. :(

eterntychanges @ 2008-10-19T21:15:00

2008-10-20T01:15:28Z

Okay, this is about the third time that I've tried to post an update on here. Maybe it'll go through. Hope so!

This weekend was a blast. Spent Friday night/Saturday morning with Mother in Lebanon at a bed and breakfast. Hardy's Properties. It's a group of 4 houses remodeled and decorated for turn of the century Victorian era. Each house has at least 2 suites. All of them are beautiful. We also partook of a high tea there. 5 courses of homemade food. The breakfast that came with the rooms was a candlelit affair, served by the owners. All homemade, as well. Very simple, but exquisite. They have 11 set of bone china that get used. Al, one of the owners, is also an antiques dealer and interior designer. Very friendly. It was $155 for the suite and breakfast, with private bathroom, monogramed robes, personalized cake, and private garden entrance. Amazing! I can only imagine what this place looks like when the garden is in full bloom.

Saturday night, Link, Katies, Justin and I went to King's Island for thier Halloween thing. It was really nice, though very cold. If I hadn't been walking all over Lebanon for the morning, I would have stayed longer. We were still there until almost midnight. The haunted stuff wasn't too bad. It was neat walking through the place with all the fog machines going, too.

So, I'm up to join the snoring Yeti and huddle up for warmth. We're supposed to get a hard freeze, according to Link. We don't have our heater on, but both of out neighbors do, so, to me at least, it's pretty comfy. Link says he's freezing, though.

Well, g'night all. Will turn in early and try rto hit the gym in the morning.

eterntychanges @ 2008-10-13T19:29:00

2008-10-13T23:48:36Z

this terrible depression that's been plaguing me for the past weeks refuses to let up. it seems that it takes all the energy this body posses just to get out of bed, let alone do anything constructive. any of those who have been at the mercy of depression may have noticed that even colors seem to dim, food will taste like ash, and just taking a shower seems to take ten times the energy. while never one for picking up the phone to call people, it now sometimes won't get answered at all.
while the source of this is likely to be the fact that i am still, as yet, without a job, that doesn't make it any less painful. lucky for me, though, this isn't an actual black depression. haven't tried or even wanted to end my life. just feel sad, annoyed, fearful, and angry all the time. damn rapid cycling bipolar. bleck.
did manage to clean the bathroom tub, make link a bunch of cookout food, download some stuff for him, and put in the normal bunch of applications. they are finally done with our patio, which is great. can start cleaning up the nails, dirt, trash, broken items, ect that were left behind.
went and saw my niece this weekend. she fell asleep on me in monkey mode, leaving a bit of drool behind her. it was very cute. JIm and kim joined us, after which we went to get some dinner, catch up, and play rock band 2. the game looks alright, but nothing that i'm really interested in buying. link seems interested in it, though. we've got rockband 1 now, which works just fine for me. wish we had more versatility than we do, but that's alright.
pho seems to finally se over his cold, which means that he's back to screaming all hours of the day. he constantly wants somebody to play with him, and play with him now. even though we've taken to hiding his"toys", he manages to find them and continue to drag them around the house. since some of these toys - okay, most of these toys- are items of my clothing, this has been more than a little irritating for me. he also loves to drag neck ties around. will have to get a picture up here of him doing so. if it's something long that touches his bum and belly, he looks utterly rediculous, since he can't stand anything touching that area. his whole body arches and he walks on tiptoe, sidways, trying to get away from it, but not lose it.
speaking of the fluffy devil, he's screaming now.
time to play "wear out the pho into a pile of mushy goo and get an hour's sleep"

eterntychanges @ 2008-10-10T15:11:00

2008-10-10T19:27:20Z

This is Aubrey Ella Belcher!! This was the day after she was born. Sorry it took me so long to get something on here, but link was holding the camera for ransom.

here are her teeny tiny piggys!

well, pics are up, as promised!

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

2008-10-07T15:23:44Z

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eterntychanges @ 2008-10-03T22:45:00

2008-10-04T02:49:32Z

been spending a lot of time yar-ing movies lately. (please, people, read into that. :)) our movie collection is growing exponentially. it is, however, mostly anime and porn. Found the whole studio ghibli collection. most of them worked, too, which was even more amazing!

still nothing on the job front. not to lose faith though. ... trying not to, least wise...

follow up appt with the doctor isn't unti; 10/15, which blows.

trying to keep spirits up is the name of the game.

as normal, long time, no post

2008-09-20T02:03:12Z

okay, this isn't a happy post.

the company i was working for closed down because the owner was speding over $2000 on drugs every week. the last day it was open was 8/28. big fun, that.

on 9/8, i went to the er with chest pains. we were there for 6 hours. about average for the er, really, but it still sucked. link's worried sick about it. as normal, nobody knows what's wrong. On top of the chest pains, i've been havin dizzy spells, weekly migraines, and leg weakness. went to the gp last week, and he sent me to a cardiologist, but he says he doesn't really think it's heart related. so i'm now getting a day full of testing on tuesday. it's crappy. have to wear a heart monitor for 24 hrs. so, since this all started, i haven't been getting too much done that i wanted. even going to the store will make me get really dizzy. almost passed out on friday, and bit part of the inside of my lip off the keep from doing so.

while all of this is going on, link's been working constantly and is rarely home. when he's not working, he's doing other things, like calling games for the huber heights radio station. it wouldn't bug me so much if i had a job. it's even worse that i didn't get paid for the last month i was there. that's $1600 down the drain. ... okay, that's enough bitching..

afraid to take a walk or ride my bike because they don't know what causes any of this. for all anybody knows, the endometriosis could have decided to take a trip and move into other parts of my body. ... don't think that's likely, but since it's to the point of not being able to stand up straight after getting out og the car again, it like all the hit are just piling up one after the other.

hey, at least i'm not having to call off work to go to the dr, huh?

i'm trying to be optimistic about everything, but with link constantly asking me what's wrong, being in the house so much, having so little money, the job i applied for telling me that i didn't get it because they gave it somebody they knew, but i gave a great interview, it just seems like the world sucks.

and photon is still peeing on the couch. he also now thinks that my nightgown is his toy and will literally go in search of it to drag it across the apartment and bring it to me to "play". it would be cute if he hadn't torn it up by doing so. Selena has been licking herself bare on her stomach and legs. Her new name is "chicken Legs". Merlin is just mer. always the same.

so, yeah, i've made myself in a bad mood, so i'm gonna go on a bike ride for a few hours.

eterntychanges @ 2008-08-02T21:22:00

2008-08-03T01:46:54Z

so it has been a bit of hell for a while. I've had the greatest weekend of the last six months and the worst month and a half of work. We left the state and went to Indiana for our honeymoon. It was so relaxing. of course, we got there and were thinking how good a swim would feel but by the time we got to the pool, some kid had crapped in it and the whole pool had to be closed down and cleaned. We went to the Indy zoo, which was great fun The only bad part was that I had broken my toe the night before when trying to sneak into the midnight showing of the Dark Knight. (Which was AWESOME!) so walking so much kinda hurt but i got to pet sharks, saw a dolphin show, and bunches of other stuff. It wasn't as big or nice as the cinci or Columbus Zoo, but it was still great. On Sunday, we went the carmel, which is a great little city. it's what Tipp City wants to be, really. It's a really artsy little city full of art galleries and little locally owned shops and restaurants.

so, link and i went to see the dark knight opening night. the movie was well worth not getting any sleep for two days and standing in line for two hours. joker was great. well surpassed all expectations. now it just comes to waiting for the watchmen movie to come out next year. with as obsessed as link was with the bat, i may be with watchmen. i'm re-reading the graphic again for the 10th time. can't wait to see how they do the story line and such.

MOnday 8/4 i get my first tattoo. it'll be awesome. link's on vacation starting that day, so he'll be coming with me. i'll post a picture of it on here once it's healed.

well, this is borrowed computer, so i better get off.

eterntychanges @ 2008-05-06T13:01:00

2008-05-06T17:16:14Z

okay, so there are a lot of things that have happened since the last time that i've been on here.

i tore up the back wasteland area in the back patio. we now have a garden of sorts. it took two days and there's still work that i want to do on it. sometime this summer the apt complex is going to tear down the decomposing fence that is back there now and put up a new one that is going to give us about 2 more feet. that will be great for planting herbs and more vining stuff to climb up. right now i have 2 clematis, bleeding heart, panseys, sweet alyssum, and a whole bunch more stuff. am waiting to find foxglove, but it may not be found this season. too wet in the spring and too dry last summer. with the extra room, i'll be able to expand my alter area, too. it's a little cramped there now.

got a bike last weekend and went riding in yellowsprings. forgot how nice it was to feel the wind against my face as i blew along the road. just put on my ipod and rode. plan to ride a lot more this summer, too. with the patio, i'll have someplace to store it. am determined to lose weight. linky and i both. hate being to heavy. know that a lot of it was being off my meds, but w/ so much stress right now, the weight isn't coming off as fast as i would like. the bike will help. having link through with school and able to help out more will help, too.

work is busy. changes are coming there and there are too many secrets. scott and diane are going out of their way to make it seem that everything is on the up and up, which just makes me more nervous.

still need to get things arranged in the apartment. want to change everything around in the spare room. right now the bed is up against the far wall. eventually i want to take it off the wall and put it length wise in the room, away from the window. that way we can fit most of the book cases up there and free up space downstairs. it's too cluttered down there right now.

found out photon was peeing under the stairs and behind the desk. cleaned the carpet and threw out the things that he had hit. none of it was recent, so i think it happened when schedules were changing and the box wasn't chagned as often as he wanted.

there's a lot that i wanted to put in here, but there's not enough time. lunch break is over.